One thing that i've struggled with since day one
"Well ole Bec, hope you got a back up plan."
stay with me.
Me and my friend Bailie decided we needed a coffee date tonight. It was full of well what coffee dates are always full of, your deepest thoughts, hope and dreams. I mean it was a given right? Coffee date means AT LEAST 4 hours of thoughts and dreams you didn't even know you had. We started looking at AMAZING bloggers on instagram. (You know the people who make life better than it ever could look) And envy just ran all over me. I do not have that natural gift. BUT a sudden rush of adrenaline ran over me."MUST PROVE I'M CREATIVE" Coffee date took a weird turn real quick when I crawled across the table to find "Perfect Lighting" incorporate a color scheme but of course just make it look natural beautiful and effortless
not exactly dreamy..."This doesn't make the followers wan to be me?!" So now I get all frustrated. Full melt down was closer than it should have been. I MUST BE CREATIVE IT IS MY LEGIT JOB. My dog can't live off the income of an uncreative photographer. (There is a reason you have never heard of one.) Bailie seeing this off self crisis unfold over how my coffee pictures didn't look like art and just, well coffee, sweetly said "That's really good. Yeah i like it." Bless her. My mind began to wonder truly how can I sell people pictures when I can't even make my life look good.
BAM. It hit me
I have never been creative. I don't dress cute, really ever. Planning my wedding makes me tired even thinking about being creative, and teachers just never could read my writing. Not dogging on myself just saying that's not who I am.
What is it...
Then I started thinking about my photography in general. I just never can take landscape pictures....there has to be people. I said. There always has to be a person in my picture to make it striking or interesting or just even, art.
My mind raced to a couple hours before, I was a little early to my session at a BEAUTIFUL location. and I did something I literally never do. Tried landscape photography. The results well..
I mean..It's a beautiful place. But my heart didn't light up when I took this picture. All I see is barn. leave, fence. I don't see a story like some photographers betray in landscape. I don't see MY HEART in this photo.
Fast forward 15 minutes later, The joy that I had taking these pictures is something that followed me through out the day. That sweet smile, the way she looked at her Mommy and Daddy, the way they looked at her. Now THAT is art. That is beauty in the truest form. I see their story. A story that is natural, effortlessly beautiful. Hey. . That sounds familiar huh?
Fast forward again back to coffee date.( after try 14 to make my life look adorable and fail). I thought about the joy that comes with photography business. It's not "the color scheme, it's not perfect lighting" that inspire me daily. It's the people.
I literally take the beauty of a family and capture with a lens in the way I see them. Happy blissful. real. art.
Which brings me back to blog post one. Purpose.
It's SO EASY to get caught up in in "making life look good" But it's the soul that is a true reflection of art. It last longer than a moment and it even last longer than a picture.
It's the love I see that inspires me. it's the creativity I see in peoples life, the originality the true finger print of God I see on their life that is the heart of this beholder.